NEVER_AGAIN

Been on my journey since the summer of 2022 when I made a pact with a friend (while was a bit drunk lol) to stop using adult content. In October I finally had my first great try, but after 2 months in December fell back into old habits. In march 2023 I picked myself up again and was free of my addiction until december of 2023: no doing the deed, only in total maybe 6 times during that period of ‘tempting my demon’ (aka opening the site but not watching any videos, only thumbnails) to see how I would react and if my mentality towards adult content had changed. It did, I am disgusted by it now, compared to the degenerate that I was not even a year earlier. I fell back into old habits after I had a break up with my girlfriend (who I only dated for a single month). Went to a psychologist about the break up because some afwul stuff happened, discussions there led to my addiction and trying to understand on a deeper level of why i was addicted. That discussion eventually led to me making SERIOUS mistakes, things that still scar me today and which i would love to rip out of my memory if i could. After those mistakes i became a lot more serious and faithful to my religion (Christianity), which helped me enormously in many aspects of my life. Currently going strong once again, it will probably not be the final victory, that is a lesson i’ve learnt, but hey we can all only do our best can’t we!