Breakup

#1

I am in Engineering college doing M tech, I live far from home in the hostel , I am dealing with breakup, i used to do gym sessions , was learning kickboxing, and was very social with my friends , I also developed the habit of smoking ( cause of my friends) , and even got compliments from my professor for my good results in the tests, then this girl who was in my college used to approach me to understand maths, slowly we developed feelings for each other and got into a relationship ( Although I was a bit sceptical into getting into a relationship), this was my first ever relationship, so I was excited as everything was new to me , after 2-3 months of being into the relationship, her demands started. At first she told me to leave my habit of smoking, I too was going to leave it someday anyways , so I did . Then she demanded from me to leave my kickboxing classes and gym as she thought, I was not being able to give her time, i was resistant at first , but i did , then she demanded to get rid of my group of friends as he thought they were too toxic ( now i understand, they were not ) , so i did , then she demanded to talk less with my parents at phone as she thought only nerds talk to their parents and tell them how their day was , so i did . Today , she left her phone open ( mistakenly ) , and out of curiosity I opened her insta , I was in tears when I read her chats with other guys , she had multiple relationships going on , now i even not telling the situation to my friends , cause I slowly stopped coming at the adda and distanced them . Now , I am in bar near my college , and very depressed, my tests are from the 25th and i developed the smoking habit again out of depression. I am so ashamed of myself, I don’t even have the courage to confront her , I feel I will be lonely again.

#2

go talk to your parents or someone you trust, SHE is the one who is toxic. You should never give up the things you love because of someone you love. They may love you more, but you will love yourself less.

You should defenetly break up and get back to your friends. This is way the saying " Bro’s before hoes" exists. You can always fall back on your bro’s but if you go all in on a girl and you end up breaking up, you’ll be left with nothing.

Hope you get better and you’ll find help.

Good luck