Killed in action

#1

Unfortunately yesterday as I was in my room trying to do uni work all day with no one in the house… the stress and the urge built up till the point where I couldn’t resist.

I thought I would share the story of how I was feeling etc to try and help fellow comrades still fighting…

It’s crazy how the brain just doesn’t let you rest, I have a deadline for my uni work which I had to complete on my laptop… it involved creating a diet plan on nutritics where all macros and vitmains/minerals had to be exact according to guidelines and I was really struggling.

This is definitely a trigger for me my brain tries to procrastinate by watching porn and I tried to combat it by making food, doing push ups, watching nofap videos etc but eventually caved. Don’t know what I could have done.

However, today I have focused on being positive I have got a ton of work done and feel happy and motivated i’ve just played for my 6 a side football team and played brilliantly won my team the game… this just shows you ‘dont lose your powers’ the benefits I have made from 16 days nofap won’t go way with one relapse but only if you give up!.
Thanks for reading. God Bless.

#2

Hey Dhouston!
I am kind of sad to know that you were killed in action. losing a comrade in battle isn’t easy, but just get back on track. The main goal of this is to learn and improve.
Man, if I would start telling you how many times I have failed within a month, and for the simplest of reasons, the only difference was after each failure, I was aware of the Why, When and Where.
I would like to add the fact that I have been tracking my progress in combating this habit since October 2018. This app would show me the total of days in which I met my goal, the current streak, and the longest streak, as you can see in the photos. I would recommend you downloading it and learning about how it can serve you in your day to day activities. I am sharing with you the goals that I assigned to myself and that I judge would make me a better person and improve my well being in the long run.
You could see this as an example in which you could modify to serve your own self endeavors. Anyways, excuse my rambling, but I hope you can take something out of this and good luck!
The App is called Done: https://apps.apple.com/us/app/done-a-simple-habit-tracker/id1103961876

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#3

Dhouston, you relapsed yes. But, as long you keep on trying you havent failed. My advice is dont take life too seriously. Stresses are always there but, if you feel stressed about stress then, you will but, if you think rationally stop for a moment and be present and replace stress with higher vibratory emotion like: gratitude. Find the light in darkness my friend.

#4

Hey Steadfast

Thanks for your comment and yes I will try this out much appreciated. I feel I am perhaps focusing on my streak too much but it is difficult not too.

#5

Very true, the recent videos on here talked about being present and not thinking into the future or the past. With all whats going on in the world at the moment many stresses seem silly in comparison.
Thank you.

#6

Good on you brother. You understood that you had the urge to watch porn, and recognized the it was on its way. Make sure to learn and reflect from this war and use you new found knowledge to win the next oncoming war. I don’t wait for it to come, I will come for it (the road to success). Good luck on your journey Captain Dhouston. We wish you the best.

#7

Thanks for your honesty.