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What do I get out of NoPMO? (I change the name because I dislike the term “NoFap” because I still think masturbation is healthy and it’s porn that’s the problem).
The main thing I get out of NoPMO is Discipline and an Inner Fire that I can harness to GET SHIT DONE. Being an incredibly sexual person, having no release and not being able to enjoy that easy dopamine fix means I have to be hard. I have to be brutal. So I light that fire inside of me, I strategize, and I fight.
I 100% turn this into a metephorical War. That’s the only way for me to succeed in this. So I turn myself into a metephorical Soldier. I wake up when most people my age are going to sleep, I take a shivering cold shower, I meditate, and I go and conquer my weakness in the Temple of Iron. Every day I prove to myself that I am stronger than my weak and perverse instincts. And I do this with Mindfulness and Suffering.
I almost never skip these things because I know from experience if I skip one day, I’ll skip the next. And if I skip 3 days, I’ll skip a week. And if I skip a week, my Inner Fire will burn out and I’ll slide back into the cold but enveloping embrace of my destructive habits.
The Inner Fire metephor works well for me. The big trick about it is keeping the flame alive, but also keeping it under control. Too much fuel and it will run rampage and my body will not be able to keep up, then the whole system breaks down. Too little fuel and it will burn out, and it is not easy to light it sometimes. Fuel for the Inner Flame is anything that is Good for you to do. It can be going on a nice long walk, reading a healthy book, working on a project, socializing with good people, taking cold showers, meditating, physical training. etc.
But fuel for the Inner Flame is also about suffering. Doing things that SUCK, but are beneficial for you, and doing them mostly because they suck. Cold showers are one example. Fasting, going for a long brutal run… Doing things that the Weak side of your mind hates, because you know you have to burn that shit to the ground in order to succeed.
The only reason I can keep this stuff up for extended periods of time, is because I have Goals. Life Goals, that I’m very serious about achieving. They’re not really that specific. One would be having a meaningful, satisfying career. I know I can’t do that if I’m spending my days surrounded by videos of fake people having fake sex.
Another goal is to have a loving and successful family. How in the name of all that is holy could I raise my sons to be strong, sensitive, and conscientious, if I am not all of those things first? How can I raise my daughters to be independent, tough, and kind, if I do not truly embody those traits within myself? How can I help my children and wife through their struggles and problems, if I drown all my own in a disgusting and deceiving vice? I can’t. And so I know I WILL eradicate pornography from my life completely, eventually. I shall not stop fighting.