No PMO War XL

If an egg breaks from the inside, it means life. If it breaks from the outside, it means death. Everything that comes from the outside is meant to distract you from yourself. In society, it’s all about serving the “most important” ideas — ideas others had, jobs others invented, a 24/7 lifestyle others designed. Most people in the West live lives so similar that even the smallest differences make them envious. “Look, the neighbour’s new car.” “The boss’s new vacation.” “The girlfriend of your best friend.” And then came the greater hubris: social media. From that point on, the whole world could live in your neighbourhood. And of course — porn. You see one woman after another, each “hotter” than the last, yet you’ll never experience a real connection with any of them. Perfect for distraction. Poisonous for your inner focus. Being in your inner focus is like writing your own script. Life has no given meaning — but that doesn’t make it worthless. It’s empty. And emptiness is freedom. You can fill your blank pages however you choose. You can give your life meaning. Real change only happens on the inside. You don’t need to control what’s outside of you. You only need to control yourself. Nothing else.

Before: Depression - sleep all day - junk food and soda - low self worth After: Energy - sense of accomplishment - confidence - the hard things become easy

How is everyone feeling so far? I stepped away from the website for some days to rebuild in private. I was experiencing some depressed days and it took all my mental energy just to focus and ensure that I didn’t relapse. It felt like going through hell on a couple of those days and I know that this is the first time in my life I have managed to successfully get through days like this, which that has provided me with some great evidence that I’m strong enough to overcome urges and succeed. My brain has been doing some crazy things at the moment, one day I’m full of energy, the next my mind is completely flat and depressed struggling to find the energy to even get dressed in the morning. Yesterday was an interesting one, the first half I had no energy and couldn’t even stay awake then the second half I was full of energy and exercising in the evening. I guess this is all part of the re-wiring process, and I’ll need to keep experiencing this range of feelings and emotions until things finally start to level out. I joined a gym yesterday and have some supplements being delivered today. I’ve got a sudden urge to bulk up. It’s 6 weeks until the school Christmas holidays begin and I feel like that’s a good amount of time to get on a gym programme and start making some progress. Anyone else got any updates to share?

Really thankful to be part of a community like this, that take these things seriously. Shoutouts to whoever's idea this community was, you're helping a lot of people.

I’ve once again discovered how the NoPMO challenge motivates me to start other habits that help me grow and think differently. Over the past year, I struggled with pressure at work and panic at home. I couldn’t handle it and escaped into toxic habits, thinking I was rewarding myself for getting through it — when in reality, I was just avoiding the real problems. I used to be ahead with building good habits, the kind that could actually heal me. The problem with bad habits is that they steal your focus. You stop living and start surviving. You’re constantly fighting or running from things in your daily life. I had to understand that in order to live the life I truly want, I need a different hierarchy — one based on long-term thinking, not just reactions. I don’t want to just react anymore. I want to handle things in the long run — to create space between me and my thoughts, to solve problems objectively, and to let go of what’s not worth holding onto. Yesterday, I started meditating again and realized how much I need to calm down. I’m slowly moving away from that endless loop of negative thoughts and emotions. Just being, thinking, and doing — that’s what matters. It’s strange, but with PMO you fall into a mindset where anything feels “good” as long as it gives you more dopamine. You keep chasing that first high. It’s a mindset of constant action with almost no reflection — a powerless loop. You think you’re in control for a moment, but right after that moment, the habit controls you. Meditation helps me get back to the mindset of thinking before acting. It teaches me to let small things go and focus on the present moment and what truly matters in life. I also noticed an extra pump during my last gym sets — training feels great right now. As for the flatline, the pressure feels a bit lower at the moment. I think it’s about respecting your inner rhythm more. We often try to force ourselves to feel a certain way by chasing external things, just to realize that real control doesn’t come from outside. It’s about giving things time. And honestly, I get it now — having energy is like having money. Being rich isn’t about what you spend; it’s about what you keep.

I'm not in sync with the conquered self, counter, today is my 30th day. I'm getting healthy dreams of going on dates with girls before having sex with them. I started taking online courses to help find a job. It has helped me set priorities straight. (Not just going to the gym everyday) I wake up really early (5 am) and go to sleep at (9 pm) [ My insomnia is getting better] My music taste has expanded; I've found new styles of music that I like. Overall, more open minded. I noticed my body giving off pheromones. I've become more patient, instead of rushing things, we all have time on this Earth and nothing should be rushed and ignored.

In the last war i was KIA because a week after me and my girlfriend did the deed i kept getting urges, any advice how to conquer this or any advise because if i sleep right i can keep myself off

Unfortunately after a spontanous party yesterday (I dont party often) and doing some drugs I have then after the night relapsed unable to control my lust 2 times. I have noticed that the relapses after 70+ day streaks end mostly because of either being too drunk or doing things like mdma. I take it as a lesson and let this be a lesson for You too: I believe You need to be mostly sober or totally sober on this journey to succeed. It was almost easy to go 70 days without pmo this time because I wasnt drinking etc. at all. I think the "demon" (or whatever You wanna call it) of lust gets waken up after partaking in drinking and doing drugs. I don't feel defeated, Im gonna see this war through without relapsing again and Im gonna be stronger for the next war! My apologies phalanx warriors.