No PMO War XLIII

Every time I watch myself in the mirror I fucking hate that person. I hate him for deceiving himself his parents and his god. I fucking hate him for not fulfilling his potential. I know the potential I have and things that I can achieve but still I fall into this trap again again telling myself, "oh ! One peak won't hurt" one peak turns into one relapse, one into two and suddenly I have PMOed 5 times within a week. In fact this entire year I have failed to win a single war the best is 20-25 days. The drawback of relapsing is I get extremely tried and start doom scrolling while eating junk food. I have been doing this since the last week. This entire year has been a disaster in terms of progress in studies for me. I have realised the only thing that can make you more productive is shortening your screen time. I usually procrastinate my work by make an excuse that I'm doing nofap I must be in flatline, that's why I'm feeling lazy which results in doom scrolling YouTube. In fact I quit all social media only to get addicted to youtube shorts. I will try to do my best in remaining days of this year so that I can start 2025 better with a headstart.

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My partner isn't in town (she's been out for over six months (handling a family problem)) so I thought I'll do some home cleanup, and frame some photos to surprise her when she's back. . . I was going through some old photos on my laptop and I happened across photos from our steamy vacation. I was wearing a loose loincloth while watching the photos (it's what I wear at home when there are no guests). . . Within moments, I just realized that I was rock hard, and I mean it felt as if the cock was about to explode. I don't ever remember it being THAT HARD. I should have stopped at that point, but I was too careless. I thought - no big deal - these are our photos, and I have to sort them anyway - I can handle it. . . And then as I kept scrolling, a video came on (of me pleasuring her), and that set off firecrackers in my head and damn whoa that sent me over the edge and without even touching it, I just ejaculated in my loincloth. I could tell the moment that I was about to cum and I was screaming in my head - "dude stop it.. no!" but I just couldn't physically resist. . . I've been trying to follow tantra for a while in recent times - and it has helped me improve my mental strength and holding power, but unknowingly running into my past lovemaking with my partner just sent me over the edge. Guess I miss her a lot. . . Such a pity because I wanted to see the final levels of the new artwork.

the rules would be even more strict with the punishment for failing the challenge would be to do an insane amount of squats in one set( different for everyone; more squats if u can for example il try doing 100, breaking my legs in the process)such that u cant walk for atleast the rest of the month. rules: . 1. No porn/porn substitutes . 2.no reading erotica(counts as porn) . 3. no touching your dick(no edging,gooning,MO, nothing) . 4. intercourse allowed( just keep ur limits ) . 5. Must keep end of year goal to achieve . 6. Accidentally looking at porn doesnt count. just remember to close it(whatever) immediately(i feel like a lot of people will bend this rule. DONT) . 7. wet dreams are allowed(natural) . thats it, actually. NNN victors are given the option to either start on Dec 1 or DEC 2(31 days-30 days either way)

Since the time (many years ago) I realized that I'm addicted to porn and took the baby steps in my journey of escaping from porn, I've been trying to figure out how to measure progress. . . Measuring progress is an arduous process, especially for something so poorly researched as PMO addiction. Just like in any science, first we must define the units of measurement, then the substances that need to be measured, then determine the range - that is what constitutes as bad, OK, good, outstanding etc. And then, after some more research - one can also determine what is the timeframe that changes are expected to be seen. . . Like I mentioned - it's an arduous and meticulous process. I've noticed that in every noFAP forum, people conform to the highly simplistic, and also exceedingly misleading "day streak counter" or streak for short. A streak is the most stupid measurement unit for something as complex as NoFAP. It equates an adolescent teen with freckles and pimples who has eons of free time, with a 30 year old man who has so many responsibilities that he's walking a tightrope between the petronas towers. A 20 day streak for the teen isn't the same as 20 days for the grown man. And infact, I'd argue that a virginal teen can probably maintain a 1000 day streak easier than a 30 yr old man (who has had sex) maintain a 50 day streak. . . Also, 1000 days of noFAP of the teen wouldn't lead to phenomenal improvement (he's most definitely going to waste it by playing video games or other stuff. Even if he goes to the gym, he's not going to be regular, and he will most certainly lose the gains by a few cheat days. That's how teens are - we all have been there), but 50 days for the man would be life-changing because he has seen things, and would know the value of 50 days of noFAP. . . Also, 50 days of noFAP through willpower method - no matter who does it, whether it's the teen or the man - is utterly useless because nobody can extract any benefit from those days. All the energy was expended in just RESISTING PORN. . . . Let's say you're digging for gold, how would you describe success? Let's say two people are digging for gold. A dug for 5 days in point-1, 8 days in point-2, 12 days in point-3, 4 days in point-4 B dug for 8 days in point-5, and 23 days in point-6 . . Who can be considered successful? Is it B because he dug for 31 days? Or is it A because he dug in more places? The answer is obvious - Did either one of them FIND ANY GOLD? How much gold did each of them find? Without that info, the number of days or number of places is absolutely useless. . . Likewise, a streak counter is an utterly stupid measurement, and meaningless without actual results. So how to measure actual results? Let's talk about some realistic yardsticks, and reliable milestones to look forward to - in the journey of escaping from porn. (Continued in the next post)

I did it, everyone! Managed to pass 30 days since the last relapse. It's something I haven't been able to do since at least couple of years. Feels great 😌🤌🙏

(iPhone)(can do the same with android just search it up) Go to settings, go to accessibility , go to display & Text size, scroll down to color filters and turn it off. Colors do play an underrated major role when it’s come to your brain. And can activate certain parts send hidden messages to stimulate areas of yours brain. Mainly the color Red,blue, and others. Your subconscious picks up on everything so be mindful.