No PMO War V

Let's unleash the beast inside you.

I always almost forget to check-in once Friday/the weekend hits, but my streak is still going strong! keep going to those who are still in the war!

Good morning gentlemen (and ladies if there are any here), I have been officially 26 days KIA within this war. Much has happened since my last presence. I have been on this site for about 2 years now, winning and failing, cycle repeating. However, I have returned a few days ago from a volunteering camp I decided to take part in. It’s good to reset your brain sometimes by doing outside physical work in nature. I was about 10 days into my nofap streak when I met a woman on the work camp, and we clicked exceptionally well. We got close quite quickly, albeit nothing exceptional. We were at the camp for 14 days only, not like you have time to build anything serious, and I didn’t come there for that purpose. We danced a couple of times, laughed, talked, gave each other a couple of hugs. Generally had a good time. I’m home now for a couple of days and still thinking of that time. She was the final catalyst needed to get rid of fapping once and for all. I realised that I truly didn’t need it, as well as porn, because I already have the energy as a man, which attracts women. I hope this short story helps all of you out here who may be struggling with something I had as well. I do not know what urges will come later, I might fall a bit, but never fail. Remember this - sometimes, a real interaction and relationship with a woman is all you need to become a better, more successful version of yourself. Rise and conquer, Propro

So hello guys i am on 73-74 days on NOFAP I really don't count it anymore because i am not thinking about it .I had anxiety shame I couldn't talk to girls because of porn, now I am feeling different I have zero anxiety zero shame I am working everyday for about 9 hours and the best of all I have a date. The message for all is don't stop believing all the suffering all the pain its going to be worth it focus on your goals guys and smash it without audience. Nobody cares if u cant but everybody are gonna see the new person you become. STAY STRONG SOLGIERS I BELIVE IN ALL OF YOU 8 / 5 000

Not hearing from me is a good sign it's a sign I'm doing better and don't need to out myself and share near misses or relapses. I have focussed more on studying and don't have time to think about PMO or let alone do PMO. I'm doing healthier habbits, but one thing is the stress that really doesn't help. I haven't coped and used PMO to 'relief' stress. Cause it only makes things worse. So how are yall doing.

"Safeguarding intelligence from corruption by lower desires Our intelligence is designed to counter our lower desires, not to serve them. However, we all have desires that can bring out the worst in us. These desires often arise due to external triggers but eventually lead to internal turmoil, as seen in the case of addictions. Intelligence helps us recognize the consequences of indulgence and protect ourselves. Unfortunately, when these desires grow strong enough, they can corrupt intelligence itself. The Bhagavad-Gita (3.40) warns that lower desires can infiltrate not just the senses and mind but also intelligence. For example, an alcoholic with sound intelligence might avoid situations that trigger drinking, but one whose intelligence is corrupted may use it to conceal their indulgence, such as limiting consumption to avoid detection or using substances to mask the effects of alcohol. This corruption can be exploited commercially through products designed to conceal indulgence. When intelligence is corrupted, it stops acting as a protector and becomes an enabler for indulgence. If we notice our intelligence justifying or hiding indulgence, it’s crucial to seek intellectual cleansing. Immersion in wisdom texts like the Bhagavad-Gita can help us refocus and counter the corruption of intelligence. Summary: Intelligence is meant to counter lower desires, but strong desires can corrupt it, turning it into an enabler. Corrupted intelligence often focuses on concealing indulgence rather than preventing it. Intellectual cleansing through wisdom texts can help restore intelligence to its protective role. Think it over: Recall an instance when your intelligence protected you from lower desires. Reflect on a time when your intelligence was focused on concealing signs of indulgence. Identify sources of intellectual cleansing, such as specific books or practices, that you can keep accessible for yourself. *** 03.40 The senses, the mind and the intelligence are the sitting places of this lust. Through them lust covers the real knowledge of the living entity and bewilders him"

I must confess something I’ve been hiding for the past few days. Since my last 5 relapses (last post), I’ve avoided posting. I felt ashamed — deeply. I wanted to bury this failure, to crawl into a corner and pretend it never happened. I told myself I’d just carry on quietly and let it fade, like it never occurred. But that’s not who I’ve chosen to be. I made a promise — to myself, to you, and to God — to live with honesty and integrity. So here I am, not hiding anymore. Over the past 4 days, I’ve relapsed 10 times. This was a painful one for me. I had a solid streak — I was doing well, felt strong, and for once in a long time, I was clear-minded and present. I can’t even remember the last time I had such a long stretch without PMO. I was focused, grounded, and hopeful. But old patterns crept back in, slowly. After one single relapse, my brain got instantly re-hooked on that extreme external stimulation. After two weeks of barely any dopamine highs, it latched on like a starving addict. And before I knew it, I was back in the pit, lost in compulsive cycles. Ten sessions of porn and masturbation in four days. Gaming again. Staying up late. Straying from my diet. Avoiding study while my exams loom. It’s awful to admit this. I want to change — I truly do — but this addiction is relentless. It constantly whispers to me, trying to drag me back to the easiest source of dopamine. Today, I had some silent moments — no phone, no music, no distraction — and I truly felt the weight of what I’ve been doing. Why am I wasting my time watching others live (YT)? Why am I trading away my soul and energy to lust? I have my own life to build, my own future to create, and my studies are a sacred responsibility. Every time I sit down to study, there's a voice in me that says: “A little porn won’t hurt. A short game break is fine. You’ve got time.” But I know better. I don’t have time to waste. And if I need a break, there are better options: A walk with my dog. A conversation with my mom. A book. A puzzle. Prayer. Silence. Stillness. Anything but porn, games, or infinite scroll. I’m struggling. But struggle is not failure. Struggle is the furnace that forges something greater. If I can face these hard moments and not run… I will come out stronger. This relapse will not define me. The return from it will. ? Scripture that grounds me: Matthew 5:28 – “Anyone who looks at a woman with lust has already committed adultery in his heart.” 1 John 2:16 – “The desires of the flesh and the eyes are not from the Father but from the world.” Galatians 5:16 – “Walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.” Colossians 3:5 – “Put to death what is earthly in you: sexual immorality, impurity, evil desire...” 1 Peter 5:8 – “Be watchful. The devil prowls like a roaring lion.” 2 Timothy 2:22 – “Flee youthful passions and pursue righteousness.” 1 Corinthians 6:18 – “Flee from sexual immorality.” 1 Peter 2:11 – “Abstain from passions of the flesh, which wage war against your soul.” ? Closing: If you’re reading this and you’re down bad too — I see you. Don’t give up. Confess it. Let go of the shame. Start again. I’m not proud of what I’ve done these past days, but I’m proud that I chose to stand up, speak out, and begin again. This is day 0, but also step 1 back to the light. We fall 7 times. We rise 8. I’m still walking the path of greatness. I’m just dusting myself off first. Let’s go again. ??