I really wish I got my pmo addiction under control a long time ago. Still working at it. But something that has helped me a lot, in case anyone needs to hear it, is to stop living in an all or nothing mindset in regards to sobriety- things I’d say to myself like “If I have x days under my belt, I’ll be able to do this or feel good doing that.” Or “I relapsed this morning, so today is going to suck or I am not going to appear as someone people respect.” In my experience those stories we tell ourselves do not help, and it’s setting us up to have everything rely on something that can very quickly become an excuse or obsession.. try to just be involved in life and let sobriety help you be more present and more fulfilled, and more whole and better for yourself and others- but do those things anyway, no matter what, and you’ll become someone more apt to succeed in sobriety and other things. Allowing yourself to just be you and figure out who that is, is important.