How is everyone feeling so far?
I stepped away from the website for some days to rebuild in private. I was experiencing some depressed days and it took all my mental energy just to focus and ensure that I didn’t relapse. It felt like going through hell on a couple of those days and I know that this is the first time in my life I have managed to successfully get through days like this, which that has provided me with some great evidence that I’m strong enough to overcome urges and succeed.
My brain has been doing some crazy things at the moment, one day I’m full of energy, the next my mind is completely flat and depressed struggling to find the energy to even get dressed in the morning. Yesterday was an interesting one, the first half I had no energy and couldn’t even stay awake then the second half I was full of energy and exercising in the evening. I guess this is all part of the re-wiring process, and I’ll need to keep experiencing this range of feelings and emotions until things finally start to level out.
I joined a gym yesterday and have some supplements being delivered today. I’ve got a sudden urge to bulk up. It’s 6 weeks until the school Christmas holidays begin and I feel like that’s a good amount of time to get on a gym programme and start making some progress.
Anyone else got any updates to share?
