No PMO War XVIII

Unfortunately after a spontanous party yesterday (I dont party often) and doing some drugs I have then after the night relapsed unable to control my lust 2 times. I have noticed that the relapses after 70+ day streaks end mostly because of either being too drunk or doing things like mdma. I take it as a lesson and let this be a lesson for You too: I believe You need to be mostly sober or totally sober on this journey to succeed. It was almost easy to go 70 days without pmo this time because I wasnt drinking etc. at all. I think the "demon" (or whatever You wanna call it) of lust gets waken up after partaking in drinking and doing drugs. I don't feel defeated, Im gonna see this war through without relapsing again and Im gonna be stronger for the next war! My apologies phalanx warriors.

To be honest, nofap is easy if you just don't peek and quit thinking that you "must" jack off. If you get triggered -which is easy these times due to constant smartphone usage- you gonna quickly lose your motivation. I get my 1st week done with no urges, it isn't that hard tbh but I stick to that advice and use blockers. The blockers can be misiused, cause if I want I can easily make them off, but their role is to limit the amount of accidentally showing erotic material like ads popping out etc

I've come down with a bad cold. Headache, nose running, eyes sore and watering. Obviously not the end of the world but one thing I know about myself is that I instinctively use PMO to boost my dopamine levels when feeling tired and run down or when trying to alleviate negative emotions. Usually I would go for a walk or maybe do some exercise when the urges hit but when feeling unwell I feel like I don’t have the energy or motivation for any of my regular positive coping mechanisms. It feels like it would be so easy to slip into those well worn patterns of behaviour today but I’m determined to defeat it this time once and for all. What would you do at times like this?

Hey guys, i guess we all know when the pressure is up we tend to lack in discipline. In the past i often break my gym grind, move to pmo or do drugs when I was under pressure. Pressure at work, pressure with decisions, pressure with people, etc. A good friend of mine once said to me you dont have to lack in traning if you are under pressure in work. You try to avoid a cage. A cage of things you have to do. You think because you have to do things you are not free. But this is wrong. You have to do this things because you are not free. Feeling comfortable is not freedome. Doing what you have to for your goals is what gives your life freedome. A person with financial freedome is dedicated to work on his finance. A person with freedome of drugs is dedicated to work out. A person with freedome of pmo is dedicated to avoid this shit. No fucking excuses mates. Hold the pressure high. This is the time where the most growth and the most freedome ist happening.

Ichigo. What’s the difference between a king and his horse? If their form, ability, and power are exactly the same, why is it that one becomes the king and leads them into battle, while the other becomes the horse and carries the king? So what’s the characteristic that distinguishes these two beings? There’s only one answer! INSTINCT! In fact, it forms the very essence of our being--Deep, within our body lies the honed instinct to dominate, and slaughter our enemies! My friend ‘ you don’t have that! You’re weak…Ichigo! I don’t know about Zangetsu. But I refuse to play horse to a king who’s weaker than me, If you aren’t willing to assert your strength and retain the crown, then I’ll destroy you……Which means……I’ll be king.

I expect that i leave the old pmo mindset/program forever. Go threw it like its nothing.

We’ve lost over half in three days. This war isn’t easy. Stay strong 💪🏽

I wonder how do you spend your weekends recently. Do you stay at home or rather go to halloween parties?

I'm definitely not feeling strong today. I started a little before the war and usually, the first few days are "easy" because my dopamine receptors are cooked. Then eventually I have stronger urges. If I recall correctly, while there is some variation strong urges usually hit around end of week 1 or early week 2 while the flatline hits shortly after that. Not looking forward to that, flatline is where I failed last time, but at least I can stay focused for it. For strong urges I usually find other things to enjoy in my day - writing, exercise, etc. Anyone have any good tricks for the flatline, where everything is (temporarily) gray?