I was in your position last week and I could edge non stop for hours without climaxing. I thought I am a master controller… hahaha. But this train ends only at one place and we all know it. It ends with guilt disappointment and square one.
Any kind of edging is defnitely relapse, because while you edge and back, a huge damage is done to your hormone receptors and you are eating your valuable brain grey matter while doing this. Taking away your brain's executive power control and giving it to the animal brain.
Semen retention actually doesnt matter much at this point. Ship is already sinking to the bottom.
I have been there and I know that after you edge, you get an immense feel of energy. I tell you it's fake and very temporarily driven by dopamine. Don't let your brain rationalize that ' oh you function well and strong after edging'.
I am 100% sure that once you edge, you want to do it non-stop and it will 100% end in total relapse and misery.
Next time, Whenever you get intense uncontrollable urge and wet dreams to edge. Reming yourself that you are in control and you are the driver and captain of your life. Otherwise, you are good as an animal.
We are fighting a fucking war and you are a goddamn soldier. Keep on fighting the edging monster. Never let it control you.