Yesterday was intense — emotionally and physically.
The day started with an important reflective exam, and afterwards I had a conflict with my sister that stirred up anger in me. But instead of letting it eat me up, I used it. I went to the gym and poured all that energy into leg day. That release felt… powerful. Controlled rage turned into growth. That in itself made me grateful.
More gratitude followed:
The exam went well. A cancelled class gave me extra time to relax in the sun. I played one last round of gaming before exams kick in.But then came the evening — I was bored, and fell into the YouTube hole until 11pm. I felt that familiar sticky emptiness. A bit of guilt too, knowing it would affect my sleep and next day’s energy.
No PMO-wise? The urges keep losing their grip. It’s getting easier to say no. I haven’t even had a morning erection in a few days, which is new for me. Maybe my body and mind are truly beginning to heal.
What really helps lately is:
Meditation Gratitude And seeing women no longer as goddesses or fantasies, but as fellow humans — with both strengths and flaws. I don’t put them on a pedestal anymore. That makes real conversations easier, and much more authentic.Later that evening I saw a post from MarMari about love and inner beauty. It reminded me: true connection doesn’t come from surface-level attraction, but from depth — and faith.
After the exam and workout, I felt this deep peace, like all the stress had been physically drained from me.
Three things I was thankful for yesterday:
The blooming flowers in our garden — they lift the whole vibe of the yard. A lounge chair in the sun — pure heaven. My electric bike — the wind was strong, but I was stronger. 😅I’ll go into today focused on one thing: preserving my inner peace, especially as exams approach. That peace is sacred — it protects my sleep, focus, and joy.
“If you ask God for help, He won’t give you the answer — He’ll give you a problem, so you can grow into the person who can solve it.”Let’s keep walking in the light, brothers ✨
No PMO. No pedestal. Just presence.
