Below is my true life story of becoming addicted to porn, the effects on my life, and by God's Grace my escape from porn. I've given my system at the very end of this post:
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Most Popular kid in High School - darling of both students, and teachers. Finishing High School and joining one of the best colleges in the region.
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Overt Love proposals from FOUR girls. They were the prettiest, and most popular girls in his large school.
One proposal was so overt - she said: "I know your family practices are different from mine. I'll drop it all for you - whatever you want."
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Another proposal:
"I am so obsessed over you that I couldn't concentrate on exams and failed some tests. First time I have ever failed - I'm generally a great student. I couldn't explain my failing grades to my family. Don't you know that I love you?"
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Another proposal:
While he's playing a sport with his friends, the prettiest girl of the school, comes up to the group. Everyone stops playing and is gawking at her. He's annoyed at her for disturbing his game. But she still demurely walks up to him, and gives him a Valentine's Day card.
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He takes it from her and shoos her away because he wants to play. She runs away blushing, and the guys just keep teasing him after that. He doesn't understand what he did that she was so attracted to him.
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The Fault Lines Emerge
College Freshman year - the insane popularity waned only a bit, but not enough to be noticeable. Freshman chicks were still jumping on him.
College Sophomore year onwards, grades steadily degraded. Reputation of a porn addict builds - "Oh he has a 1TB hard disk worth of videos". Still popular, but much lower than before, and self-esteem starts to slide.
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As porn's grip tightens, other friendships and relationships weaken (he doesn't care about maintaining them).
"Why approach a girl, get her number, text for hours to win her heart? When I can see uber hot chicks strip at my command, all in an instant" he says to himself.
Senior year, the transformation is stark. The best prospect of the college is now a directionless loser. No job, no higher education prospects (because of having to retake a number of failed courses). All female & male relationships gone - everyone moved on to other things.
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Porn takes full control (but not identified)
Takes almost 3 years through the wilderness - living at parents' basement like in a dungeon, hiding from everyone. Playing every video game released. Watching every movie released. Downloads and Faps to every video. Eat, play, watch, fap, sleep, repeat.
Wasted 3 years of prime life - while the whole world surged through.
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Porn goes into temporary hiding
Pulls up his socks, gets his grades cleared out. Performs exemplarily in university admission tests. Gets into a good university- porn still has its hold, but has a backseat, because of the busy nature of the university courses, and also because of insane female attention and dating (and fucking).
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Eventually gets a top job with good salary, terrific perks and a respectful boss. The perfect job. Lots of female attraction during this period - traveling to many countries, dating (and sleeping with) varied types of women (all stunning) - white, black, brown, asian. Single girls, chicks with BFs, married women, married moms - everybody salivated over him.
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Drunk texting him from bars to come pick up and fuck, Booty calls at midnight, one night stands galore. Even a cuckold couple calling him as a bull for threesome.
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Porn's biggest deception
After about six years of porn being hidden, marries the girl of his dreams. Gorgeous beyond dreams - prettier than anyone he has dated, and sexier than any of the pornstars he has seen.
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And she's always horny for him, gives blowjobs on demand (she had given twice in the car in public places, while he was driving. She had initiated a blowjob when they were hiking).
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He's a DOM, and she's a SUB - calls him Daddy, Master, Owner, God in the bedroom. He dominates her, treats her like a rag doll, always in control. She's totally submissive to him, and wants to forever be a SUB to only him. The perfect marriage.
She even goes as far discussing with him some of her female friends for FFM threesomes.
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Porn unleashes its biggest weapon
But it was all too short. Within few months, PIED reared it's ugly head. He hadn't stopped watching porn since early years of college. He had been stuck in it in varying degrees.
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And now it hit with its full weight - when he had grown softer, since he had left the gym for the past 2-3 years (indulging in endless dating and ignoring the gym).
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Now when the girl of his dreams was begging to be fucked by him - all he could do was think of some other girl to get even mildly hard for a short time, before his cock kept shrinking. He was fat, had little to no libido to fuck her. Only thing that got him hard was porn.
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She chose to live separately from him. She was psychologically wounded. Broken she said. She loved him, but couldn't live with the man he had become. She needed out to heal herself.
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His self-esteem had crumbled. The girl who ate from his hand, completely submitting to him, who had called him daddy, master, god - now wanted nothing to do with him. He saw their sextapes and saw how dominant he was then and how weak he had now become.
He was a broken husk of the man she had met.
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The true revival
With her living separately, he dedicated time to understand porn and to destroy the addiction once and for all. He had already tried various systems and failed. In fact, before she had left, he seemed to have finally found the answer. But even after that discovery, since he had failed, she had left. So he realized that existing systems are of no use. He developed his own.
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He analyzed his triggers, porn's effects; devised ways to handle, and escape from it, by God's Grace.
He implemented it, and voila - he was back to pre-marriage levels of female attraction. Of course - he was now older, and married so couldn't go off dating these salivating chicks. But he knew now that the system worked.
He had truly found a way to "Escape From Porn"
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