I first checked out this site almost a decade ago, near the birth of my first child, in hopes of finding motivation to be able to move past this issue.
Since then I can see the devastation that’s come into my family life by not conquering my self and leaving this problem behind me.
All I can do is try again and hope to have 50 days of reprieve from the emotional retardation that this problem has caused. Maybe I can tie in quitting alcohol and drugs at the same time so I can just break free from everything weighing me down.
I’m now finding that I can really only do this for myself and by myself. Nobody will hold
My hand, and nothing is more important than caring for myself and healing for my own sake, full stop. I don’t even want to think about the trickle down affect or who else should join me, only focusing on me entirely is something I’ve never done.
Here we go again.