I feel like this is my biggest battle in life. I feel anxious and I have to find a distraction or a way to get rid of it. This is where porn and masturbation comes into play for me. When I get the urge to release it's no longer because I feel horny it's because I don't want to feel anxious anymore. It's a self-medicating behaviour. My brain now connects orgasm with stress release not sexual desire. My key challenge during this battle is to be able to sit with my anxiety, allow it to come up, and let it go. Meditation, exercise, positive self-talk, taking action. No longer confusing porn and masturbation with genuine sexual desire. Rewiring my brain one day at a time.
Hitman
