Yesterday was rough.
I woke up and ended up gaming almost the entire day — during exams. Honestly, gaming is already a time-waster, but in this season it feels even worse. There's always something more meaningful to do: studying, meditating, even just sitting outside in silence and letting your brain recharge.
I felt the pressure to study but just couldn’t get started. It’s like I’m in a flatline — no motivation for anything that takes real effort. Even working out, which is usually second nature for me, felt heavy.
Still, there were victories.
Even in that fog, I stayed clean. No porn. No peaks. The triggers came — especially when I was deep into that pit of low energy and craving easy dopamine — but I didn’t give in. YouTube binges happened, but I drew the line before it went further. That’s already a major difference from the past.
The biggest urge usually hits when I lie in bed. But I tell myself: if I relapse now, it won’t stop there. I know what happens after. And that’s become my weapon — I’ve taught my brain that porn = pain. I refuse to start that cycle again.
My energy was low, mostly because I slept badly. I stayed up late watching random videos. I didn’t even go outside — though I still tracked my food and ate clean.
🙏 Gratitude
That I can still enjoy dinner with my family and stay within my calorie goals thanks to discipline during the day. Strawberries — like nature’s candy, but without the crash. Skyr — it gives me the protein I need without effort in the morning.🎯 What I’m Taking into Today
No more screens after 9 PM. Less dopamine, more peace.
And even if progress is slow today — slow is better than none.
