Hey all!
I’ve been struggling recently, have relapsed quite a bit and binged significantly too, tried to fool myself that it’s all okay and natural and whatever, and really I’ve not been feeling particularly bad for it, but I recognise that it’s unsustainable. I have trouble regulating, so for me, it’s either No-PMO or Always-PMO. I’m picking No-PMO.
I also realised that I used to engage a lot more here. This is a new account, the previous one I had began to feel like a game, I was “the best” because I had the most stars (not even true) and it stopped feeling like I was doing this for me. I failed the last two wars because I just sort of forgot how much I cared.
Anyway, I’m back. And I’m posting this because I intend to stick to it this time, and my brain works really well with accountability. I’ve seen all the posts in the past about staying away from the willpower method, but I know what works for me and right now, I’m in what I suppose you could call the “bulk” phase. Get a streak going, and then figure out the mental defences.
That’s my story, thank you for reading, see you on the battlefield!
