No PMO War XXXI

Today I got hit with a thought I hadn’t felt in a while: “It would feel good to get hard again.” Usually, I shut that thought down instantly — I know where it leads. But this time… before I realized it, I was already an hour deep into a rabbit hole of thirst traps on TikTok. Endless videos of beautiful women, seductive voices, curves, and perfect angles — all pretending to be intimate, to be with me. More stimulation in an hour than I’ve seen in real life all year. My brain jumped on it like it was finally getting what it craved. But the truth is — it’s fake. After the video ends, it’s just me and the emptiness again. So I scroll to the next, and the next. And then the brain starts pushing for more… for that full dopamine hit, that orgasm. That’s when I realized: I was sliding back into the old script. The cycle: see a trap → get horny → binge more → jump to porn → orgasm → regret. But today… I broke it. I stopped before it escalated. I didn’t cross the line. And I’m proud of that. This wasn’t about winning easily. I felt like I was drowning. But instead of hating myself or numbing out — I snapped out of it. And that’s growth. I still regret the lost time, yeah. But I’m grateful I didn’t relapse. Normally, I’d be pissed at myself for even slipping. Today… I’m proud that I interrupted the cycle. I’m healing. Slowly. But I’m waking up. We don't need to be perfect. We just need to stay conscious. And keep choosing better — even if it’s late. Even if it’s hard. Stay strong, brothers. You're not alone.

Woke up to hot, but I was ready to start the day — I had energy, and although I didn't fully stick to my ideal morning routine (still too much time on YouTube during breakfast), I managed to get a solid chunk of work done. Starting the day with urgency really helped, and it’s something I want to build on. No major urges today, but I did see a stunning girl at the gym. My brain immediately started imagining a whole future with her (classic move), but she was surrounded by 4 guys — that was a red flag, and I managed to bring myself back to earth. One major win: I didn’t game today, even though I had the opportunity. That’s a huge shift in my discipline. The stress of the upcoming exam is building, and I didn’t do as much for it as I’d hoped, but my gym session gave me a lot of energy and gratitude. I also worked standing up (standing desk) today — something new — and it made a real difference. It boosted my focus and helped me stay sharp. Ate well overall, although I noticed I was low on carbs at lunch, which made my workout a bit sluggish. Drank three cups of coffee, which kept my energy up. I overslept a bit — went to bed at 1am, woke at 10am — but I still got things done. Gratitude today: - The clear blue sky, warm sun, and light breeze — it felt like God gently telling me, “You’re doing well. Keep going.” - My dog — I never stop to realize how much emotional support her quiet presence gives me. She can’t speak, but she heals. - My standing desk — a fresh setup that gave me a new sense of momentum. - Tomorrow’s aim: Get up and be working by 10AM sharp. No slow starts. Keep the energy flowing. - Quote of the day “The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward.” — Steve Maraboli

To all survivors. Congratulations making it. Only 7 remain to survive for 7 weeks. Good luck to you all and may you find victory over your greatest opponent..... yourself.

Yesterday was rough. I woke up and ended up gaming almost the entire day — during exams. Honestly, gaming is already a time-waster, but in this season it feels even worse. There's always something more meaningful to do: studying, meditating, even just sitting outside in silence and letting your brain recharge. I felt the pressure to study but just couldn’t get started. It’s like I’m in a flatline — no motivation for anything that takes real effort. Even working out, which is usually second nature for me, felt heavy. Still, there were victories. Even in that fog, I stayed clean. No porn. No peaks. The triggers came — especially when I was deep into that pit of low energy and craving easy dopamine — but I didn’t give in. YouTube binges happened, but I drew the line before it went further. That’s already a major difference from the past. The biggest urge usually hits when I lie in bed. But I tell myself: if I relapse now, it won’t stop there. I know what happens after. And that’s become my weapon — I’ve taught my brain that porn = pain. I refuse to start that cycle again. My energy was low, mostly because I slept badly. I stayed up late watching random videos. I didn’t even go outside — though I still tracked my food and ate clean. 🙏 Gratitude That I can still enjoy dinner with my family and stay within my calorie goals thanks to discipline during the day. Strawberries — like nature’s candy, but without the crash. Skyr — it gives me the protein I need without effort in the morning. 🎯 What I’m Taking into Today No more screens after 9 PM. Less dopamine, more peace. And even if progress is slow today — slow is better than none. “Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.” – Bernard M. Baruch

Today is may 30th. I want to stop watching porn and join on the act of noFap with you guys. I aim for a month, and possibly more. Come with me on journey and help me

The last two days weren't easy. I started one of them well — a walk in the sun, a healthy breakfast — but I wasn’t truly present with my goals. Then came the storm. I was hit with some of the most intense triggers I've had since starting this journey. Not out of lust, but boredom. Curiosity. I wanted to test if my filters were still strong. They worked — mostly. But a few gaps showed me just how fragile the mind can be after nearly two weeks clean. Arousal came out of nowhere. A thumbnail here, a title there. My brain lit up like it used to, hungry for the dopamine hit it once worshipped. I tried to plug the leaks fast. Some damage control on YouTube, some new blocks — all just to buy myself more time when my defenses are weak. And still — I didn't give in. Each time I felt an urge, I reminded myself: “Do I really want to throw away all this progress for something that will leave me empty and regretful?” The answer was always no. I’ve reprogrammed my brain to associate porn not with pleasure, but with pain. Emotional pain. Spiritual stagnation. Isolation. I don’t want that anymore. Friday I had energy — went bouldering and stayed disciplined with my diet. Today... I'm tired. The battle takes its toll. But I'm still standing. Not because I’m strong. But because I’ve learned: you don’t have to win forever, you just have to win today. “If you don’t sacrifice for what you want, what you want becomes the sacrifice.”

Today is may 30th. I want to stop watching porn and join on the act of noFap with you guys. I aim for a month, and possibly more. Come with me on journey and help me

Today started decently. I woke up at 9 AM, but I stayed in bed way too long, wasting time on my phone. Didn’t start studying until 1:30 PM – that’s something I really want to change tomorrow. - I knew exactly what I had to do, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. Discipline is still a work in progress. - And for the first time in a week, I had a strong PMO thought. It hit me like a wave: “It will feel so good, it’s harmless, just one time...” For a few moments, I was mentally with it, buying into the lie. - But then I stopped. I literally stared at the wall for 5 minutes and asked myself: “What am I really feeling right now?” The answer wasn’t lust — it was restlessness, boredom, a desire for escape. - And so I let the wave pass. That’s what urges are: waves. They crash, but they always fade. 💡 Your subconscious can throw mental attacks, but it can’t move your body unless you let it. - 💥 Energy: 8–9/10 Cutting and making better food choices have a massive impact on how I feel. And when I feel better physically, porn loses its grip. I stuck to my calories, despite yesterday being pizza and today being fries — discipline is holding strong 💪 But: only 2.5k steps... Need to move more. After this, I’ll read and meditate. - 🙏 Gratitude: - Deep, restful sleep — finally - Stayed on track food-wise even with temptations - Strong coffee to rescue groggy mornings ☕ - 🧠 Insight: Tomorrow, I’ll start with sunlight in my eyes and a short walk to wake up and reset my rhythm. Discipline starts with momentum, and momentum starts with action. - “Death laughs at us. All we can do is smile back.” – Marcus Aurelius ☀️

Have to say that it is a bit embarrassing to admit that even with all my stars, I still get weak and give in to my cravings. In a moment of weakness, I let myself watch a bit of porn, but didn’t edge or MO. Sorry to let the remaining guys down, but I will get back on the horse and start again with my discipline. Stay tough for those of you who are still left, and also to the rest of you guys as well!! The reward of perseverance is worth it 🙏💪

Hello the last time i wrote i was on 30 days on NOFAP, today I am on 62 days NOFAP. The only disgusting thing is the flatline but I am starting to see the light feeling kinda lonely but the motivation the drive for life is there I am super ambitious to achieve everything the eye contact with women feels amazing and even make them blush I love it :DDD I avoid it before now I dont care I started to love my self again I started to love the small things. I only want to say do not stop guys because the flatline is dangerous do not stop believe wish u all to not stop it will pass away !!! Love ya